AngieBettin's entry on 09/29/2015 08:09
I am alive. I am here for a good reason, aplan from above. Somtimes we dont always understand why. But god has his plans for me. I am a loving person. My reassons are not of my own but gods reasons...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/01/2015 09:00
I found out my husband has been here looking at my journal and all the post made to me. All the highlights have been taking offf all the messsages sent to me today. This sight wont let me make a new...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/03/2015 12:30
my husband is going to do is fix the car with my mechanic son this weekend. I wont do anything much. Have to go sunday to ma and dads. Thats it. I would have liked to go to cider mill, and get apples...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/05/2015 11:39
Been having anxiety attacks in the evening. Trying not to take my meds unless it dosnt go away after 5 or 10 mins. I am trying to keep my mind busy, but it dosnt always work. I try to pray, but it...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/06/2015 06:58
To day i took my anxiety med but it made me feel worse than before. Feel physical worn out, like the energy sucked out of me. Woke up at 4:40pm, made coffee. Went back to sleep after a cup of...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/07/2015 11:31
I still am having heart beating fast at timesbut i started my nicotine patch agian at the 21mgs this time, so it helps more with cravings. Going to try to go to my ma and dads house, my moms a...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/08/2015 04:08
I sit here in my pj's and it is almost 12pm. I havn'nt got anything done. God I am trying to stopped smoking with patch. My cravings are big. I am trying to save my husband money and feel better. I...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/09/2015 11:34
Yes i fogot my patch today. Did good without it. Did need my anxiety. Meds today. Did good with out it. Made chilli from home grown tomatoes and it turned out good. Thats it for today. Get to sleep...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/10/2015 05:15
Just been doing the normal stuff for a Saturday. I can't but help but feel sad. I know god has a reason for me. I know that my boys need me. I can only be who I am, caring, loving. I do my best that I...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/12/2015 06:40
Cleaning house like I do every monday. My husband went on his 1st emt ride along. He said they were busy. I dont thinlk hes gonna like it. For his seniority you think the city wouldnt make him do this....
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/13/2015 02:55
This is the day I get to get out! I brake free of all the chains of boredom and get to be me. Yes, maybe someone will talk to me today. My oldest son last night had a bad anxiety attack. He always...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/16/2015 12:44
Today I got out. It helps each day when I am able to get out in the world. Even though ot looked like rain, these fall days I love.
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/23/2015 02:28
It's Friday and Iam tired. I feel ok, I am gonna try and walk today. Either by my house or in the mall. I feel just like I need lerp, didnt sleep well. Tossed and turned. I brother in law is becoming...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/24/2015 01:30
Nothing much to do today. Its a lazy saturday, and I just want to sit on the couch. Rainy day too. These are the days to work on my jewelry. I need to make my gifts for Christmas. Maybe I will look...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/27/2015 04:54
I want to walk more but I cant do it alone. My husband dosnt either have the time for me and wont let me get a dog. If he could spend a little time with me with a walk in the evening at a slower pace...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/29/2015 02:51
My mom wants back surgery on pinched nerve. My dad has 2 j tubes , they both want me to take care of them. And their dog died this wk an r getting a new one. They want me to take care of all things...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 10/30/2015 06:25
I told my ma yesterday i couldnt do it all. I will continue to do what I do now, but I cant take care of my dad , and after surgery and a new dog and stay there. She understood and is going to have...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 11/03/2015 06:16
My mom sis wanted me to come over, she said she had a sewing machine for me, but I should have read between the lines. My aunt made me feel very uncomfortable and I am not going over there agian. It...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 11/09/2015 03:41
I decided to loose weight. Took a long look in the mirror and dont like what I saw. I am gonna change. I stopped smoking,dont drink. I am gonna need to loose my wweight realistically by june of next...
View ArticleAngieBettin's entry on 11/11/2015 03:12
I talked shortly with my mom, but she is still hard for me to understand. She is in pain I know, but relies on drugs too much. And now she thinks she needs to go to the same pain clinic as my dad. She...
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